Who am I?
a daughter, wife, daughter-in-law, independent professional, student, artist and lots of other things demented, deluded, disgraced, deranged, daunted, defeated and diagnosed insane earlier in life. I am still all those.
But currently I see myself as an
individual intensely insane, an independent, emotional crazy hormone-laden woman constantly in pursuit of happiness something, anything, whatever else the whole galaxy is also in pursuit of and striving to figure out what my passion in life is I’m open to experimenting. I’m a mom to an amazing, ever-active toddler that deserves all the opportunities and experiences I can possibly provide. I’m a wife to an awesome man that worries himself too much and strives hard to make everyone around him happy. I’m a daughter to hard working parents that have sacrificed many pleasures in life to give their kids a fair chance in life.
I am me. With all the ups and downs and good and bad. Whether anyone likes it or not. I may be a mom, wife, daughter but underneath it all, I am still myself. At least want to be.
I’m just like any other person; I am not very special. I am also very unique; So I am ultra special.
I am still an introvert. That hasn’t changed. I might surprise you and myself by jumping in at the chance to party. I like to be an all rounded extrovert. That still hasn’t changed either.
What do I love?
I love independence. I love my family.
I love adventure. I love taking risks.
I love a good, natural work-out. I love outdoors.
I love dance. I love Flamenco.
I love creating. I love food.
I love writing. I love staying up late.
What ticks me off?
* Judge”mental” people
* Staring (You know, people do that a lot in India)
* Public obscenity
* Rules without purpose
* Policies without brains
Where am I?
I live in India. But where I am currently in life is a daze. I’m in a sort of a quarter-life crisis (yes, I’m not that old). My childhood dreams, adolescent struggles, college courses, jobs I took up later – all these have nothing to do with what I want to do in life. Or may be they do. At least not yet. ‘Cause I’m still trying to figure things out.
I like spending time with my toddler Most days, especially the holidays I am tired of being a mom and yearn to break free and socialize for a change. but a hard time figuring out if I’m doing it right for him. I’m also constantly tired of feeling bad or guilty about not doing something or the other as a mom. I have trouble accommodating to life in India but have a cook and maid. I have no few friends in India but lots of relatives and cousins. I have a car but just learning to drive around the crowded, narrow streets here. I live in South India but Indian culture is my pet peeve.
So that’s that.
Life, like parenting has ups & downs, joys & sorrows, surprises & fun, mischief & mistakes and a whole lot of uncertainty. Life is like finding buried treasure in a game of treasure island. Only you don’t know how much and when you’ll find/get the treasure, if at all. But the hope and anticipation keeps you going.
I truly hope everyone finds their “treasure” someday and enjoy the game in the process.
Get in touch with me at krish dot sowmya at gmail dot com.